Today I had a bowl of "The man who I have been in love with for 10 years doesn't feel the same about me"
and a grapefruit.
I can not finish a good game of solitaire.
( I can't get no,..... no, no, no.)

The Bird and the Bee - The Races

ohh lucifer! you work so hard just to light a little fire

I only eat skittles.
I only.
with vodka.
I am so bothered. and perplexed by how attractive I am to other people in my decay.
To be awfully literal what I am thinking is that starving and burning is sexually attractive.

And how easy it is to get by lying and emulating feelings I have not authentically felt myself in a really long time.
THat right there read so cynically. poo bah
Superstitionally.
lly

who could ask for anything more????

ME!mememe
Oh the a.m.!! All the genius flew out the window as the sun came up. Now I am left with a heavy dent where they were sitting on my chest.
Gold medal worthy.
Love,
Amber

very special

(be still their beating hearts)
- it has been a lovely day

in addition to the notebook I carry.

Detox Day Number 1: excited, excited, excited, A sudden violent desire to be in tip top for a visit. The winter has left me itchy and possibly with a permanent blood alcohol level. I am leaving little scraps of brain tissue all over town. Repeating myself. Cross my fingers that it works out better than a boiling.

iwanthertogoaway
butiknowit wouldnotchangeanything.
there would just be someone else